Challenges......

 

I started this blog to have a record of my weight loss journey and all my other challenges in life that I need to overcome and my dreams that I need to achieve...  

This blogging is a challenge to me...  I see other's blogs and they have a lot of neat things added to them and I do not know how to do that.  But I guess it is okay, because it is quite a step to just figure out my computer and write in this blog.  I am horrible at grammar and writing so I really hope a lot of people do not read my blog.  lol   I get overcome with anxiety if I do not do things right and I do not meet the expectations of others.  This is another challenge I need to overcome...  WORRY LESS OF WHAT OTHERS THINK!!!   

I was able to run my hill yesterday all the way TO THE TOP WITHOUT WALKING!!!!  Yeah!!!!  I was so happy and I even ran for over 5 miles...  What an accomplishment...  Plus, I now weigh 173...  I am so close to being under 170 and I haven't weighed under 170 in over a year....  

I want to exercise everyday and that is a serious goal of mine but I cannot do it for some reason.. I am sooooo tired in the morning and so tired after work... I am a mail carrier and just doing my job I walk almost 5 miles everyday... But it is not as an exercise---just doing my job...  I know I need to workout more then that... I think it is mind over matter in doing my workout...I know what I need to do but I can not motivate myself..  It is crazy to me that I can talk myself out of getting up early to go running when I know darn well it is the best thing for me...  I guess my biggest challenge is ME.... Getting a stronger mind...  I will try to go to bed earlier and get up to run because it is even more difficult to run after work.. Sometimes the mail is really a heavy day and I don't get home till after 4.  Then there is dinner and housework and so much to do that I talk myself out of my workout.  So I need to go in the morning.........

Also, I have been very determined to eat better... I have cut out as much candy as possible.  I have quit eating all breads... I never really liked drinking soda pop, so I very rarely do and I try to only eat 1400 calories...  I have been recording all my food on MY Fitness Pal's app.. I try to record it everyday and have been for over a year.  Sometimes I forget days... But I have been trying very diligently to do it..  It truly is amazing to me that I have done this and it still is soooooooo difficult for me to lose ONE pound... EXTREMELY difficult!!!!  MY body is fighting me all the way.. 

In my 20 and 30's I was running all the time and eating everything under the sun, except drinking pop... But I ate anything with no care in the world and I only weighed in the 130's... I just don't get it... I guess my metabolism just stopped.. And I guess it stopped in my 40's..  That is when I found out I have hypothyroidism..  And it really messes with your metabolism...It makes your extremely tired also...

Now my challenge is to overcome this.  I am considered borderline obese.. My BMI is almost over 30 and I weigh 173..  I will get this down for my health... I want to be able to run races again.  I want to be able to go hiking and not be out of breath.. I do not want to get diabetes or any other health problems.  I want to be able to run at least 10 miles and not walk it at all...  I love running and I need to quit making excuses to not get out there and RUN....

This is my goal for the next year!!!  To get up and go running and get back in healthy shape... To quit making excuses to not get out there... It will help in all aspects of my life.  It will help with the stresses I have in my financial difficulties and with other things in life.. So go attack your hill CINDY!!!!!

 

September

Summer is almost gone.  Beautiful days are here is Utah. I love it especially when you are a letter carrier.  When the temperature is around the 70's it is so much easier to deliver the mail.  It is always 10 to 20 degrees hotter in our vehicles while we are delivering the mail.  I can honestly say I love my job in the Fall and the Spring...

Okay on to my hill, my running hill, well actually the hill I have, as of yet, not ran the whole way up to the top.  I was able to make it to the top in under 5 minutes but barely.... Yeah..
My goal is to run it the whole way and to make it under 3 minutes. When I can run it the whole way, I want to be able to run it in fairly decent time. I think I can do that...I have always loved to run and I am trying so hard to get back into it.. It really is hard when you get in your 50's and you got completely out of running shape.. I miss being able to run 5 miles and not walk during it at any time.  I miss just wanting to go running everyday.. I hate having a low thyroid--hypothyroidism...  It causes depression, tiredness, joint aches and weight gain.  I have been on the wrong medicine for years... I finally found a better doctor who is helping me get on the right meds for my low thyroid..

I finally feel like going running at least 3 times a week.  I finally don't feel so tired all the time even after a very hard day at work..  I just found this doctor last month and I am just getting some of the blood work and the tests results done so it will take a few months to work everything out but I am on my way....

My daughter Michelle was here this weekend for her cousin's wedding.  I am so glad she came to visit.  She was only here for two days but she stayed with me and we had a blast. She went to the wedding activities all day Saturday but Sunday we hung out.  We went to the Black Bear Diner restaurant and had great food and then went to a few stores.  It was lots of fun.. She had me laughing all the time.. She's a goofball just like me at times...We sometimes speak the same language...  (inside joke)  I know I annoy her at times---I think all mother's do that to their kids but this time we had lots of fun...
   

 

I Love You Lots Michelle!!!