More Photo's of Mom

More Photos of Mom

I was able to scan a lot of more pictures today.  So thankful that my computer is working correctly, at least, for now.  Yeah!!!

I love this picture of me and mom, because it looks like a halo is around her...

These two photos were taken when mom came to visit--I think--in 2010.  It was one of her last trips to Utah.  She enjoyed going up to Provo Canyon.  This was near Cascade Springs. So beautiful up there.  We had a wonderful time. 

Here are some photos of my mom, her family and friends back around the 1940"s..

Love the old cameras they are holding.  Again, wish there was something written on this photo.  But it looks like she was at a military post or something.  I have another one.

This picture is of Uncle Bill.  I only know this because of all the pictures I have seen of him.  I think the man next to him is his grandfather on his mom's side.

Wish I knew where this house is in Kelso,WA.  Someday, Ahh, it might not be there anymore.

This might be a picture of my Grandfather on the railroad.

My mom has a lot of names on the back of this photo. I think it is her graduating class of 1942.

Mom and Uncle Bill

Mom talked about Aunt Tina once in awhile.  She said that Michelle, my daughter, reminded her of Aunt Tina.  She said she was not very tall, firery, headstrong and full of vigor---like Michelle..

Sunday Best?  Awesome photo...

My mom, her brothers and friends or cousins.

I love this photo because of the black leather and boots. Are they bomber jackets?  Don't know who these kids are either.  Maybe her brothers when they were teenagers.  

Uncle Harold, Mom and (Uncle Bill?)

Lots of photo's.  I'm glad she kept them and I hope that I can pass these on to my children and grandchildren.  The 1940's seem so long ago by the way these photo's look.  Such hard workers and they seem to have hardly had anything. But it these photo's they had family and friends and it seems like that is all that mattered. 

Quotes

Q U O T E S

I love quotes.  They motivate me, they move me and I wish I could think up great quotes.  Quotes that inspire are my favorites.  I am watching a series called Criminal Minds and every episode starts and ends with quotes.  I like almost every one.  The quote above was used in one of their episodes and Winston Churchill hit it right on the mark about your life.  

That is what I am trying to do about my life.  I am going back to find out all I can to understand why I am who I am now.  I believe this quote.

Like I wrote in an earlier blog about my sister, brother and me--I am surprised that we are not messed up more then we already are.  We went through so much and I am surprised we are even alive also.

I am going to have to start working every other Saturday again starting in the middle of April, so I hope that I will keep doing my blog.  This was my new year's resolution to try and keep a blog for the whole year, and to write it every Sunday, if I could.  I am working on it. But with me going back to every other Saturday is going to make it even harder to keep up,  Especially when my computer is starting to break down.  I really need to make a decision and buy a new one.  Just got to get myself over to Best Buy.  Hey, this laptop has lasted over 8 years.  That's pretty good.

I am kind of sad I have to go back to working every other Saturday but then at the same time I am glad I can make extra money.  We really need it.  Rod doesn't believe me (OR Chooses Not To) that his cigarette smoking is costing him over $400.00 a month. I even tried to show him on paper. Refuses to believe me.  I guess he is the type of person that ---who doesn't see it--doesn't believe it--or if he chooses not to believe it --it doesn't exist..  Crazy to me.  Anyway, that is another reason why I need to work extra.  When will he quit????

I need to scan more pictures of my Mom's and Dad's earlier lives.  I need to go through some more of the pictures.  I do know that after my mom graduated she moved to California.  She went with a friend of hers but as of now I can not remember her friends name.  She lived the fun life of Cali--beaches, partying, single life, movie stars, etc.  Like I mentioned before, she never really talked that much about it.  I know she worked there for quite awhile as a telephone dispatch operator.  I have a picture of her doing that somewhere.  She did tell me that she dated Charlie Chaplin's son once.  I think she had quite a lot of fun because she didn't get married until she turned 30..  Or she just didn't find the right guy to marry.  I know she had very low self-esteem because that is one thing she talked about a lot.  

 Maybe realizing I did not have the greatest of childhood is a good thing?  I do not know but I would like to think it is.  Another great quote,....  I know my mom did not do this.  She was stuck in a rut and would absolutely not pull herself out.  She drew inwards after losing her child, Linda, after her divorce, after learning her husband was a cheater and most of all losing us three kids for three years to her brother and sister-in-law. (court ordered)  All these things added up to so much that she just got so depressed.  Wouldn't anyone?  I just wish she would have sought out help.  My mom did the best she knew how. I was used to her negativity and her depression, I didn't know anything else.  If she was ever happy I very rarely saw it.  

I think that the reason I am going as far back as I can remember, with my life history, the more I will understand about me.  I think that is why I like Criminal Minds so much because they profile people in their show and I find it very intriguing how they can figure out people by the way they live their lives or by their character.  Maybe I can figure out me by the way I was raised or how I lived growing up...It's a start.......

BELIEVE.....

We have all these things in our lives to give us have more time in a day, but it seems to me that all the things we do have make our lives--even busier then they were before.  All the electronic gadgets, cell phones, computers, ipads, etc....., seem to just keep us busier and busier instead of having more free time.  Everyone is playing on their cell phones with games, texting and instagram.  It is just crazy to me.  I even play too many games on my phone.  

The last few weeks I just couldn't make time to write in my blog because so much was going on. There really never seems like enough time to do the things I want to do.

For the last few weeks we have been doing a mail count at my work and that is keeping me busy and worried, because I don't want my route to go down.  It seems it is headed that way anyway.  We usually have mail counts every year and I haven't done one on my route for two years because the last time I did do one--my route went down 4 hours a week and that is a whole lot of money to lose...I sure hope it doesn't go down again! Will know this week..

I want to get back to writing my family history (that I remember) but I just haven't felt up to it.  Been kind of depressed about things so just not motivated. But I will get back to it soon,

I am trying to get back into running again.  I have been out of it for years and years. 10 years or more!  So many things caused me to leave running but now I want to try it again.  To get me motivated I entered a race in September, called the Huntsville Half-marathon.  So that should get me up and running... Ha Ha.... Anyway, I have been out and running... A little bit at a time.  

There is always so much to do...  Work, housework, keeping up with family (especially when most of them live so far away), dinners, lunches, yard work, etc....  I guess I should count my blessings that I do have things to keep me busy.  

It has been the warmest winter I ever remember here in Utah.  We have hardly had any snow and most of the days have been in the 40's.  Just so weird to me.

I do have a lot of things to be thankful for. I usually think about the things I don't have and I am trying very hard not to do that as much as I can.  I do not have a lot of things but I do have more then some people.  I grew up with very little in material things but I did not grow up in the ghetto or the projects.  I have had a good job for over 20 years, even though I have very little in savings.  That will change.  It seems I have had to fight for everything in my life.  Maybe that is why I try hard not to take everything for granted.  I got to admit that in my 20's I got jaded and I was angry about my life. I was hard on my family and not nice to them at times.  It is interesting that the things in my 20's and 30's that made me angry, judgmental and opinionated do not cause those feelings in me now.  Well, most of the time I am not upset about most things anymore like I used to be.  I don't know if that is because of hormones or immaturity or both..... ha ha.  But I just don't get as upset at things like I used to..  

About 5 years before my divorce I found out I was hypothyroid and it has messed up my hormones something fierce.  It has made me extremely tired, sensitive to cold, hair loss, gaining weight and a whole lot of more symptoms.  I was put on Levox (synthyroid) medicine. It helped me somewhat but now that over 15 years have gone by--I still have some of the symptoms.  I am trying to learn all I can about this auto-immune disease to help me become symptom free.  But it is a long process.  I wonder if this caused me to be so upset all those years ago.  

It is funny that I have so many, many things I want to write about.  While I deliver the mail, I think about all the things I could write about. But when I get here I just don't know where to start.  I want to write about my daily things that happen, I want to write about my Mom and Dad, I want to write about my childhood, and my children and their lives.  Like everything else in this life---one step at a time.....