We have all these things in our lives to give us have more time in a day, but it seems to me that all the things we do have make our lives--even busier then they were before. All the electronic gadgets, cell phones, computers, ipads, etc....., seem to just keep us busier and busier instead of having more free time. Everyone is playing on their cell phones with games, texting and instagram. It is just crazy to me. I even play too many games on my phone.
The last few weeks I just couldn't make time to write in my blog because so much was going on. There really never seems like enough time to do the things I want to do.
For the last few weeks we have been doing a mail count at my work and that is keeping me busy and worried, because I don't want my route to go down. It seems it is headed that way anyway. We usually have mail counts every year and I haven't done one on my route for two years because the last time I did do one--my route went down 4 hours a week and that is a whole lot of money to lose...I sure hope it doesn't go down again! Will know this week..
I want to get back to writing my family history (that I remember) but I just haven't felt up to it. Been kind of depressed about things so just not motivated. But I will get back to it soon,
I am trying to get back into running again. I have been out of it for years and years. 10 years or more! So many things caused me to leave running but now I want to try it again. To get me motivated I entered a race in September, called the Huntsville Half-marathon. So that should get me up and running... Ha Ha.... Anyway, I have been out and running... A little bit at a time.
There is always so much to do... Work, housework, keeping up with family (especially when most of them live so far away), dinners, lunches, yard work, etc.... I guess I should count my blessings that I do have things to keep me busy.
It has been the warmest winter I ever remember here in Utah. We have hardly had any snow and most of the days have been in the 40's. Just so weird to me.
I do have a lot of things to be thankful for. I usually think about the things I don't have and I am trying very hard not to do that as much as I can. I do not have a lot of things but I do have more then some people. I grew up with very little in material things but I did not grow up in the ghetto or the projects. I have had a good job for over 20 years, even though I have very little in savings. That will change. It seems I have had to fight for everything in my life. Maybe that is why I try hard not to take everything for granted. I got to admit that in my 20's I got jaded and I was angry about my life. I was hard on my family and not nice to them at times. It is interesting that the things in my 20's and 30's that made me angry, judgmental and opinionated do not cause those feelings in me now. Well, most of the time I am not upset about most things anymore like I used to be. I don't know if that is because of hormones or immaturity or both..... ha ha. But I just don't get as upset at things like I used to..
About 5 years before my divorce I found out I was hypothyroid and it has messed up my hormones something fierce. It has made me extremely tired, sensitive to cold, hair loss, gaining weight and a whole lot of more symptoms. I was put on Levox (synthyroid) medicine. It helped me somewhat but now that over 15 years have gone by--I still have some of the symptoms. I am trying to learn all I can about this auto-immune disease to help me become symptom free. But it is a long process. I wonder if this caused me to be so upset all those years ago.
It is funny that I have so many, many things I want to write about. While I deliver the mail, I think about all the things I could write about. But when I get here I just don't know where to start. I want to write about my daily things that happen, I want to write about my Mom and Dad, I want to write about my childhood, and my children and their lives. Like everything else in this life---one step at a time.....
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