Quotes

Q U O T E S

I love quotes.  They motivate me, they move me and I wish I could think up great quotes.  Quotes that inspire are my favorites.  I am watching a series called Criminal Minds and every episode starts and ends with quotes.  I like almost every one.  The quote above was used in one of their episodes and Winston Churchill hit it right on the mark about your life.  

That is what I am trying to do about my life.  I am going back to find out all I can to understand why I am who I am now.  I believe this quote.

Like I wrote in an earlier blog about my sister, brother and me--I am surprised that we are not messed up more then we already are.  We went through so much and I am surprised we are even alive also.

I am going to have to start working every other Saturday again starting in the middle of April, so I hope that I will keep doing my blog.  This was my new year's resolution to try and keep a blog for the whole year, and to write it every Sunday, if I could.  I am working on it. But with me going back to every other Saturday is going to make it even harder to keep up,  Especially when my computer is starting to break down.  I really need to make a decision and buy a new one.  Just got to get myself over to Best Buy.  Hey, this laptop has lasted over 8 years.  That's pretty good.

I am kind of sad I have to go back to working every other Saturday but then at the same time I am glad I can make extra money.  We really need it.  Rod doesn't believe me (OR Chooses Not To) that his cigarette smoking is costing him over $400.00 a month. I even tried to show him on paper. Refuses to believe me.  I guess he is the type of person that ---who doesn't see it--doesn't believe it--or if he chooses not to believe it --it doesn't exist..  Crazy to me.  Anyway, that is another reason why I need to work extra.  When will he quit????

I need to scan more pictures of my Mom's and Dad's earlier lives.  I need to go through some more of the pictures.  I do know that after my mom graduated she moved to California.  She went with a friend of hers but as of now I can not remember her friends name.  She lived the fun life of Cali--beaches, partying, single life, movie stars, etc.  Like I mentioned before, she never really talked that much about it.  I know she worked there for quite awhile as a telephone dispatch operator.  I have a picture of her doing that somewhere.  She did tell me that she dated Charlie Chaplin's son once.  I think she had quite a lot of fun because she didn't get married until she turned 30..  Or she just didn't find the right guy to marry.  I know she had very low self-esteem because that is one thing she talked about a lot.  

 Maybe realizing I did not have the greatest of childhood is a good thing?  I do not know but I would like to think it is.  Another great quote,....  I know my mom did not do this.  She was stuck in a rut and would absolutely not pull herself out.  She drew inwards after losing her child, Linda, after her divorce, after learning her husband was a cheater and most of all losing us three kids for three years to her brother and sister-in-law. (court ordered)  All these things added up to so much that she just got so depressed.  Wouldn't anyone?  I just wish she would have sought out help.  My mom did the best she knew how. I was used to her negativity and her depression, I didn't know anything else.  If she was ever happy I very rarely saw it.  

I think that the reason I am going as far back as I can remember, with my life history, the more I will understand about me.  I think that is why I like Criminal Minds so much because they profile people in their show and I find it very intriguing how they can figure out people by the way they live their lives or by their character.  Maybe I can figure out me by the way I was raised or how I lived growing up...It's a start.......